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Staying out of fear isn’t always a cakewalk, however I find it’s the most effective way of manifesting the good stuff into the physical. I’ve been on an excellent rollercoaster of emotions over the last few days. Yesterday particularly sucked, isn’t it lovely that I can share that with you 🙈. Jeez attention, attention, attention seeking ego was the star of this show yesterday, dashed with a liberal sprinkling of it’s ICBC’s fault….! Oh the lovely soothing effect of blaming someone or something else was very available for use at times, & my ability to not blame at a very low ebb, as my shadow self in self pity wailed ‘Why am I creating this?’ Screw this it’s ICBC’s fault, ooh aaah that feels better, self righteous blame, my catholic school upbringing was amazing (I actually do mean that) & even offered courses in blaming others (and that too, ying/yang as with most things). ‘No self-responsibility here, nothing I can do about this!’ ‘They are going to put 3 people out of work, they are going to close my business, they, they, they ……’

Well I created a day from some kind of altered reality hell as I ping ponged through various emotional states hour after hour. Yes I created, I was at choice* all be it at a low ebb choice.

meanwhile in peaceful land …….. my intuition consistently whispered to me ‘Just get outside, just go for a walk’

Sooooo, once I did get outside for that walk, my nervous system calmed down, my neurochemistry got better, everything inside me calmed down.

Today is a better day. I am more at choice and the goal is to keep the happy chemistry flowing. When that is flowing I hear my intuition & can follow through. Life unfolds as it will & I’m not feeling like the world is ending. So as I changed my attitude this morning & eased into the flow of positivity and held tight, not allowing my emotional pain body to grab a hold for any period of time.

Boom! I get a response from the universe. Called a friend yesterday, who contacted a guy, who knew ….. you know the drill. There’s a van, it’s coming to me I can feel it, good shape, I can afford. I believe in miracles, I believe in science, I believe in the Law of Attraction, I am a creator, let’s see what I have manifested…. Exciting …. now if I hold this chaos/change/creation energy with conscious intention (Thoughts are electrical) and positive emotion (Emotions are magnetic) I draw whatever my predominant belief is too me. Will I manifest the 60’s grass growing in the carpet van or the modern one, will that be a reflection of my personal self worth, self esteem? Yikes ….. aargh not sure I want to hang myself way way out there. Oh well never been one to shy away from a challenge. Let’s see what happens shall we.

Yee Ha! Now I’m going to add some purple into my hair. Yes that is a very good use of my time, as every time I see it in the mirror, will make me smile & boost my happy chemistry. Oooooh by that logic doesn’t it therefore mean I ‘Should’ definitely should be eating icecream today? ( ❛ ͜ʖ ❛ )

* ‘at choice’ – what I call my percentage of ability that I have to alter the mental state I am presently in. When healthy, happy & in balance = 90% with each subsequent hit that I leave unaddressed which then stays in my energetic, emotional body that ability to change lowers. I have in the past worked with a biofeedback machine from the ‘HeartMath Institute’ to see the actual effect of what my mind is thinking & how much harder it is to pull myself out of a negative emotional spiral as it gains in intensity. It’s science folks, we are electromagnetic being hook us up to a machine & you can see exactly what happens with just one thought, one word. It was stunning. No paid endorsement here, just jazzed by tech.